Wanted: Immigration to New Zealand

**This post is more rambling than usual**

I'm sick - sick of living in a country which is repeatedly attacked and still remains completely ineffectual in either preventing or dealing with a tragedy of this magnitude. What amazes me is that time and time again, we are hit in places of immense strategic importance to this city - the trains (7/2006), The Stock Exchnage (6/1993), VT station (11/2008) and the political platforms people choose are regional! Instead of focusing on security, we encourage violence and disunity. I feel it more coz as a Roman Catholic, we have witnessed ugly acts of violations and not a thing has been done about it by any politician - too scared to upset their vote banks! I really don't want to be like the Jews in Germany - thinking it will never happen to me and then be herded to a gas chamber. It may not be so extreme I admit but I think maybe, there is a writing on the wall and I should take some steps to read it!

The sad thing is, I never wanted to leave - sure like everybody else, I considered the studying abroad but dismissed it realising was quite happy to stay here and do regular Indian degrees since had no plan to move anywhere. In the last year, after visits to the cousin in Hong Kong thought would be nice to work there but again, never took the trouble to actually search. But now, I am so motivated - I feel persecuted and now I feel violated coz these are places we hang out at - I pass Leopolds all the time between the walk from Mondegar to Theobroma [I never enter since I'm a little paranoid after reading 'Shantaram' about the types that hang out there but still...]. We were staying at the Taj 2 weeks ago with family - the only place I have not been in the last 5 years is VT station!! and all these places have been attacked and it's not so far away. An aunt lives next to Nariman house, a friend's friend family was killed - with her in hospital, nobody can go to work - the misery is overwhelming.

And all through it, noone does or says anything of value. I agree, it's brave to lead from the front but the thought is also foolhardy - when you go down, who will take charge? The prime minister makes a speech practically 24 hours after the nightmare begins, the politician whose name and aggressive thoughts have taken up so much news space and time, has nothing to say on the marathi manoos being attacked, the military needs to be mobilised from the capital since there is obviously nothing of value in this city to station troops over here and worst of all, we don't have the sense to impose curfew on the city so there are scores of people on the streets, all ready targets for machine guns fired from the hands of mad men.

At the end of the day, it is insanity - that people can be brainwashed into killing indiscriminately, that too with salvation dangled at the end of it. I ask you, which God will reward you for taking life?

As I finally finish this post to publish, it appears all houses and hotels have been stormed, the terrorists have been laid to rest and now all that remains is for me to wait till they decide to visit my home!