Sometimes, a song sticks in your mind, not because you like the music but because the lyrics describe your life - not just in a 'Girls Just Wanna Have Fun' way (Thank You Cyndi Lauper!) but it reminds you of how you wanted your life to be or how it was!
I Hate Luv Storys - Sadka - Ab Maine Kal Apne Tere Sang Soche Hai
Lady Antebellum - Stars Tonight - Guys with white pearl buttons looking just like Springsteen
Kings of Leon - Revelry - just know it was you all along who had a hold of my heart,but the demon in me was the best of friends from the start, so the time we shared,it was precious to me,all the while I was dreaming of revelry!
John Mayer - Heartbreak Warfare - How come the only way to know how high you get me
is to see how far I fall?
Lady Antebellum - Need You Now - It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Dido - Here With Me - And I don't want to move a thing, It might change my memory
Recommended Watching: Music and Lyrics
Edited to Add: I think Eminem is one of the greatest lyricists - I belong to the school of thought that views Rap as poetry for me generation.
Love the way you lie: That's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Turning Three Oh!
April this year, heralded the first of my friends to turn 30, followed by one in May - this month sees the list take off with 2, then 3 in September followed by another 2 in October then the random strays culminating with me in May next year .
30 now seems to me to be the big step into Responsibility - it is the sense that I will finally have to take charge of my life. In the 20's, I could shrug it off – too busy enjoying graduate studies, living away from home and then financial independence for the first time! Being responsible for myself could always take a backset but at 30, there is no such excuse!
Having taken the first step by getting married *huge sigh of relief*, I threaten to embrace it inspite of the 19 year old in my heart. Looking around me, I see all mature individuals actually making difficult life choices. At this threshold, I see friends raising children, having babies, planning weddings. I also see friends making difficult decisions to end marriages/relationships that are not working or refusing to settle for anything. I do see people who are still stuck in a timewarp, discussing life and retaining attitudes of a life, 10 years ago but this *thank god* is a limited number.
After this year, I can no longer claim to be a child (never mind what my parents think!) - I will be living on my own, *running* a house, responsible to another individual as an equal - all scary scary thoughts. I know friends have done it and succeeded very well but it is difficult!
30 also implies financial planning - what used to be water through my fingers earlier now needs to be accounted for with issues like rent, savings, and education to consider. Debt free credit card existence is no longer good enough - in fact, debts like house loans, car loans are actively embraced.
Adulthood is finally around the corner and in spite of having delayed it by 10 years, How can I still not know if I’m ready for it?
Recommended Reading: Mike Gayle - Turning 30
30 now seems to me to be the big step into Responsibility - it is the sense that I will finally have to take charge of my life. In the 20's, I could shrug it off – too busy enjoying graduate studies, living away from home and then financial independence for the first time! Being responsible for myself could always take a backset but at 30, there is no such excuse!
Having taken the first step by getting married *huge sigh of relief*, I threaten to embrace it inspite of the 19 year old in my heart. Looking around me, I see all mature individuals actually making difficult life choices. At this threshold, I see friends raising children, having babies, planning weddings. I also see friends making difficult decisions to end marriages/relationships that are not working or refusing to settle for anything. I do see people who are still stuck in a timewarp, discussing life and retaining attitudes of a life, 10 years ago but this *thank god* is a limited number.
After this year, I can no longer claim to be a child (never mind what my parents think!) - I will be living on my own, *running* a house, responsible to another individual as an equal - all scary scary thoughts. I know friends have done it and succeeded very well but it is difficult!
30 also implies financial planning - what used to be water through my fingers earlier now needs to be accounted for with issues like rent, savings, and education to consider. Debt free credit card existence is no longer good enough - in fact, debts like house loans, car loans are actively embraced.
Adulthood is finally around the corner and in spite of having delayed it by 10 years, How can I still not know if I’m ready for it?
Recommended Reading: Mike Gayle - Turning 30
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Life is short....
I was discussing the books I've read, liked, hated along with authors with my friend N and I suddenly had a revelation. I used to be able to get through anything once I started - it used to be a matter of principle - if I started the book, I had to finish it. I was also experimental (in fiction) reading varied authors like Sophie Kinsella as well as Gabriel Garcia Marquez in the same time (of course, much more was read of SK - I mean, Shopaholic, come on!!). However nowadays, I really have to be captivated by the description/synopsis of a book to be bothered to attempt to read it and yes, I say attempt, coz if the book don't grab my attention by like 50 pages, it bye bye bookie!
The revelation being the reason: Before, I never had a job! College was fun, MBA even funner, and you used to get vast periods of time off so you could indulge these whims of trudging through the boring written word just so I could say - I did it! However, once you start to work and a lot of your time is spent doing things you don't necessarily enjoy or even dislike, it is much harder to spend your precious me time, suffering through something you have no interest in!
This explains why my currently read books include such illustrious titles as Chasing Daisy, Love Rosie, One Day, Twenties Girl while my half read copies of Arranged Marriages and Circle of Reason lie gathering dusts on the distant side table! not to mention the bible for all bibliophiles A Suitable Boy has never been turned beyond the 100th page!
Edited to Add: Finished Arranged Marriages last night. Also have friend who is Editor (Therefore reads for a living) and yet manages to read everything BUT pulp fiction! so clearly this is just a me phenomenon!
The revelation being the reason: Before, I never had a job! College was fun, MBA even funner, and you used to get vast periods of time off so you could indulge these whims of trudging through the boring written word just so I could say - I did it! However, once you start to work and a lot of your time is spent doing things you don't necessarily enjoy or even dislike, it is much harder to spend your precious me time, suffering through something you have no interest in!
This explains why my currently read books include such illustrious titles as Chasing Daisy, Love Rosie, One Day, Twenties Girl while my half read copies of Arranged Marriages and Circle of Reason lie gathering dusts on the distant side table! not to mention the bible for all bibliophiles A Suitable Boy has never been turned beyond the 100th page!
Edited to Add: Finished Arranged Marriages last night. Also have friend who is Editor (Therefore reads for a living) and yet manages to read everything BUT pulp fiction! so clearly this is just a me phenomenon!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Wedding preps...
- Groom - check
- Venue - check
- Church booking - check
- Marriage preparation course - check
- Dress maker - check
- Bridesmaid - check
- Flowergirls - check
- Wedding theme+colour - check
- Flowers - check
- Wedding checklist - check
- Permission from Pope - ??
What's the point in planning a wedding if you don't have the permission to be married?
Friday, May 21, 2010
How much is Too Much?
At what point, do you stop and say 'Enough'?
Is it when the jack ass break ups with you at first fight?
or when your boss starts treating you like his secretary?
when you're not sure if it's comfort thats keeping you together?
when he cannot hear what you are saying coz he is too busy looking at you?
when he screams at the slightest thing to the point of hysteria?
when the job you struggled to get folds up in 3 weeks?
When he dates your best friend?
when your ex meets someone new at an event you organised?
when he cheated on you time after time for 3 years?
when the love of your life tells you he is getting married coz he cannot wait for you forever?
when you stopped learning at the job but are continuing out of timidness?
I always wonder about people's thresholds - what is the one step that makes the line a dot?
Some people have the ability to take much more than others but at what point, do you need to say this is it?
This has been on my mind for a while with a friend whose life turned upside down. She was always a 'doer' and had a good life with some blips prior but this last strain of bad luck seemed to turn her into a different person. I realised to me, that was enough - when the issues change who you are, the break needs to be made - when you look at yourself and you struggle to recognise the person - I think you need to say 'Enough' - I need to cut my losses and move on with life. This need to prove something to yourself, to make the experience worthwhile is not worth it for me if at the end of the day, I lose myself to prove it.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Thank you
Today I sat through the first day of the Marriage Preparation Course which is mandatory to be married in the Roman Catholic Church of India - In it, the things I learned today among others was the anatomy and physiology of male/female, the updated version of the Rhythm Method and esteem issues. Considering the juggler and I are 'Evolved' human beings - the course covered ground we already knew or had passed in the beginning of our relationship - making it truly a trying experience for the 2 of us and that was just the first day!
Since the juggler also made a 'mistake' in his 'youth' , we have also done a circle of marriage tribunal law, submitting documents from birth certicates to affidavits regarding practice of catholicism and children we might have and sending 4 witnesses to talk about the mistake, all so we can get married in the church.
I'm still not sure if this process is going to be worth it, but I promised myself I would do everything from my end to ensure it happens, the rest I leave in the hands of God and apparently, his chosen ones!
Through all this, I would like to say an immense 'Thank you' to the juggler for his stoicism in the face of what must be complete insanity to someone who has not been brought up in a demanding religion! To me, its just something you take for granted, that you need to earn your right to things but not-so for others. I appreciate the complete and utter committment he has made evident in this crazy rigmarole and love him much for it even if the 3 things he loves most about me are actually about him!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
10 jobs I think I'd like....
Please note I'm not saying careers coz over time I have realised, to me the job is a job!
* Pixy tells me this is 8 hours of very hard work on a slow day even in the last row (ref comments below) so no-can-do!
Thank you Pix!
- Tour Guide
- Features writer/journalist
- Fashion/beauty editor
- Mattress trial person (I'm assuming it involves a lot of sleeping)
- TV show rater
- Facebook stalker (I never said the job existed!)
- Food taster
- Social media user
Back up Dancer (I'm not sure exactly how stressful this is but in the last row, can't be so bad!)*- Librarian
* Pixy tells me this is 8 hours of very hard work on a slow day even in the last row (ref comments below) so no-can-do!
Thank you Pix!
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