I've not posted in a bit - mainly coz I've been too busy with life!! So I've been thinking [yes, I do that as well]...... I never prescribed to the theory that people write when they are unhappy or unfulfilled but it seems to be true for me also - when I had less to do or I was not so occupied, I wrote a lot more. Nowadays, I'm happy where I am so there is less need to vent or find an outlet for the energy. It's not like I'm doing anything different - I've seen a couple of movies, read a book [actually in the middle of it], hung out with people but nothing has motivated me to pour my heart out. The thing is...the movies were good - Transformers, Simpsons and Chak De, hanging out was fun also - new people espescially but I have not had that urge to share with the world at large. I seem to be happy sharing it at that moment itself and not need to publicise my opinion to anyone who wants to listen.
This worries me in a way - it means that my life is bigger than my writing! For a lot of people [authors mainly one would suppose..], writing is their life - nothing supersedes that. So again, I don't have a driving passion in life, other than life itself! I don't need to do anything to the exclusion of all else........ even work does not define me. This is scary because it's passion that crosses the line for you from mediocre to brilliant in anything you do. If I lack that passion, how will I ever fulfill what I can? and what's scarier is obviously I don't want to.....
Not that I think that being happy is not enough - it's more than!! I think it's important to have friends, enjoy life, marriage, kids - the works but I think in today's world, you need more definition than that - you need to have your own driving force - your " I need to do this to exist" bit which is seperate from "I need this person to exist" because at the end of the day if all else ceases, you will still have yourself and your "drive" to continue......
7 comments:
i like ur choice of songs :)
yeah me too like ur songs hon.. anyways... i thot we had agreed that shallowness suits us... dont try n change the equation.. :D
Everyone doesn't have to have 'one thing' that defines them. Yes geniuses often do but most us aren't. Then again, maybe your 'one thing' is your love of life.
I didn't know writing was your passion and you felt you needed it to exist. But I agree with the bride, what's wrong with 'being happy & living life' being a passion? Don't discredit ordinary life, we're not all cut out to be starving artists! The simple life is way under-rated by people nowadays.
@ the escapist: writing is NOT my passion and I don't need it to exist which is my problem - and I don't watch enough TV also nowadays for that to define me!! I love the simple life - Hell we live it! I just want to have something that is all consuming - it could be collecting shoes for all I care!!
@ the bride: if my thing is the 'love of life', I have a problem - the point of the post is that you need a focus point other than a human to define ur life as well!
Maybe Im using the term 'define' wrong - it's something else needs to give ur life meaning - other than alcohol ;-)!!
Um... 'love of life' is not 'the love your life' (aka another human being) It is being able to experience the everyday and find it special and not everyone can do that. I personally have no such huge enjoyment in the very act of living - many days I wake up and go 'oh god how many days do I have to do this waking up, living and breathing thing'; when I'm not doing that, I assume I am happy. That's the extent of my joie de vivre. You, on the other hand, seem to have this joie de vivre a lot and that's special.
@ the bride - thank you!!
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