Princess Diary - 66

So I've finally discovered the joy of reading books online - I found this site on the compulsive confessor - pimping this week where as she rightly said all the Baby sitter's club and Princess Diaries are available online. So I can now officially say I have read Princess Diaries - all 7 of them - yes I kid you not - it took me 10 days but I have done it! I can now enter a game show on Mia Thermopolis Renaldo Grimaldi - oh maybe I wont win the show since I'm certain I got the order of names wrong but still... I knew them!
I have also started reading some other Meg Cabot books - I actually own 'She went all the way' - don't worry - it's much more decent than what it sounds. I have read 'Queen of Babble', reading 'How to be popular' - ok ok! I can do 2 things at one time!
I have also gotten the sequel and the triquel to the Thursday Next series and hopefully they will be as much fun as the first - 'Eyre Affair' which I reread over this weekend - in the 6 hours I was awake out of the 48. So far the week seems good - did a girls night out last night - with less alcohol and more fun and lots of screaming - all in all good times!
This week, my existential issues seems much further in the distance but as speaking to R today pointed out to me, the decisions other people are making at this point are decisions I will not face till I move through the decisions at this stage. It seems strange that when we started out at the same place, how we can be in two completely different spheres of life now?

27 years!

So, I had to give myself kudos for this year! I'm one of those people who likes birthdays - who loves what it symbolises - it is the culmination of another year of existence - of life not over, and hopefully of a life well lived! This year, I have milestones - I have a brand new addition to my life, I still have my friends - I'm planning a fantastic holiday - I had a very good holiday season since R & R were down - I just have had a good year - Professionally last year also I achieved targets etc etc!

So I'm having this celebration type thing which I have had to organise all by my lonesome! Coz my mommy has abandoned me to go celebrate the baby's 2nd birthday [which I perfectly understand by the way coz she is just the most gorgeous thing ever!!] and so I had to order the food myself, clean the house, rearrange the furniture, take out the cutlery, glass and silverware - do people realise how annoying and time consuming all this and make it to work as well? so I have gotten up at the crack of dawn and done all this - now arriving at work and going to leave early to still do more stuff! But it's kinda cool coz as I always believed apart from my mini melt down this vaykay , if stuff needs to get done, I can step up to the plate and hit the ball if needs be - maybe not a sixer but still not miss the ball or drop the bat!

I've also had quite a nice birthday celebration starting with a dinner at nice Italian restaurant to bring it in, followed by a lunch with very close school friend then beer in the evening with people at work and again dinner with my dad and A. Today as u know is the dinner again so quite a long celebration and worth every minute!

May Days!!

I've realised that the older you get, the worse it gets when you live alone - and that's it! Coz by this age, it's no longer about the independence, the freedom - it's about the comfort, the security. My parents are the regular travellers but this time has been horrible, also because it seems to me, I fell sick the day they left and have not recovered since. This is also mostly coz they have not been here so there is no food, there is no tea, I have to sleep alone! It's really frustrating, I cant remember the last time, I had a normal meal! I have been having this discussion with The Bride about how miserable it is to be alone in the house and I really felt it this time. I've had a really quiet life for the most part since the beginning of the year - the main focus being the yoga and trying to minimise going out which I have succeeded at but it also means I had loads of time to catch up on the reading and what the Bf calls Alone time....so when it's enforced on me like this, I get really cranky since I don't need it. Earlier, when I had a semi hectic life, this time and space was a welcome gap in which to read, to just 'chill' and was much appreciated. Now it serves to remind me about how non fulfilling my life is!

I've also been having existential issues - which way do I want my life to go? should I follow my head or my heart? Do I have the guts to chuck it up and start anew? I had promised myself some answers by May and now that it's upon me - I don't think I have the courage to face up to those questions and what repurcussions it could have.

More blues!

I've officially had the worst month ever career wise - bad news followed by bad news followed by worse news. It's like whatever I have touched this month [and by me, I mean whatever my boss has been involved with as well - so I'm not the only panvati] has turned to dust. We are like the anti-Midas!! I've had inlays been changed the day before delivery - tracklists changed 2 days prior - contracts negotiated and then fallen through - content sent and then dropped! If you could name it, It has happened. I don't know if I mentioned earlier but I was not exactly thrilled with my increment - disappointed is a word tht I would use and now I find that my contemporary from B-school & ex office has been offered a job for 2.1 times my salary! If that does not cap off a spectacular month, I don't know what does!

I is sick!

As I successfully predicted earlier, I have fallen ill - nothing major - just the regular - bad throat and mega sneezing. I don't think I actually have a cold but the only way my body knows how to eject anything is through my nose - so even if I have a fever and it's about to break - starts the ah-choos which are violent shakes which leave me exhausted - which I might add has been the case this sunday. AND....there has been noone to fuss after me - say Baby! Can I make you tea? Baby can i make you kichdi? I have survived the entire day on cups of tea and toast and cheese spread - for a variation at dinner I had chapati and cheese spread. Yes! ok this is a whinge fest but I'm allowed to be grumpy and depressed - I'm sick and it's my blog!

I watched ' Khuda Kay Liye' yesterday which is a film whose editor needs to be shot! The film could have easily been shortened by half an hour. The one thing that makes me happy about the movie is how they portray the americans as idiots! Very few films tell it like it is and this one very successfully does even in terms of how religious leaders twist the words to suit themselves and their vision of good and evil.

I've been reading a lot of what I call Christian fiction which is mystery/suspense type novels but based on the bible etc and I find it fascinating - apparently the origin of christianity is so murky and the reasons for it to become a dominant religion. In 'The sign of the cross', the whole crucifixion and resurrection is staged, and in 'The Templar legacy', there was no resurrection. and the question posed in the book which everybody needs to ask themselves is, if you did not know you were going to be resurrected, would you still follow Jesus Christ? I think yes, because his teachings are right - Buddha does not promise eternal life but he still preached a good life. I think the romans were obsessed with immortality and to them that seemed to be the only way to create a mass following. In the oriental world, in India. Here the trick is to leave it all behind and escape this cycle. They both promise freedom but through different means.

notes to myself!

So the parents have left on holiday only for 2 weeks mind you however I have a list of instructions that will last me a whole year to complete!

• Double lock the door at all times
• Don't come home alone
• Don't leave the house after you come in
• Pay the maid
• Clean the house
• Do the washing
• Buy food
• Eat Food
• Go to the Dentist
• Put off the AC if using it
• Don't use the AC
• Keep the third room closed
• Have friend's stay over
• Get online everyday
• Don't call

what the hysterical part is they left this morning and I have a bad throat already! It's like I wait till my parent's leave to fall sick- I've always done it - then I will struggle through - go to the doctor by myself etc etc. I remember this one time I was not well, did all of the above and carried on through life and the minute I opened the door to my mother, I collapsed and was ill for 2 weeks!

I've been living a very peaceful life I think with very little drinking forget excess! In fact a couple of weekends ago - I was out till 5 and I managed with one vodka-oj the whole night - of course there were the cokes and the Fresh lime soda to see me through but still....I've been watching very little TV and of course no movies [grrrr!!] but on the whole I think in the last year, I've read more than I had in the year before - so there was some benefit to changing the job - at the very least it gave me time for my life and everybody knows the best thing I got out of it!

Coming back to my mom's list, after she repeated it to me at least 5 times in the last month, I finally snapped and noted that this is not the first time that they are going on vacation ever consdiering they are out of town every 3 months or so - and plus I have lived away from home for 3 years so it's not like I'm absolutely incapable of looking after myself - I admit I don't exhibit the signs much but wtheyyy I don't need to!! A couple of days ago, there was no food in the house and my mom was exhausted so I got down to making myself scrambled eggs and my parents came to the kitchen to stare in wonder at this feat. I was like Dude just coz I don't doesn't mean I don't know and at the end of the day in response to the million queries of what will u do when u get married - Have phone, will eat!!

WTF??

I think it's something about the onset of summer, or maybe it's daylight savings in the more advanced countries, but it seems to me that lethargy has set in and noone seems to be saying anything anymore! I for one, have actually read a couple of books and seen one okayish movie Race but nothing that motivates me to run to a computer and share my thoughts and opinions with the world. In fact, I am just apathetic about most things nowadays! The scary thing is, I went to one of my favourite haunts - Hawaiin Shack - named because of it's waiters wear Hawaain print shirts - the decor is actually rustic log cabin but I digress - the point being - I went and left within half an hour - I agree went after okayish movie but still a glass of wine and finished!!?? What am I coming to? Then went to meet another friend and favouritest haunt of all - Soul Fry - wrapped that up in half an hour as well - to do what? u might ask - this is the scary part!! I went HOME to SLEEP!! everybody knows I luurrve my sleep but on sunday and Monday morning certainly not Saturday nights! Yes! This was a saturday night as well!

Other than that, it's been the usual - Work, Yoga and home - went to Delhi again last week where met up with old friend and got loads of gossip about ex crushes, people who had crushes on me and so on..so worthwhile trip on the personal front - will see about professional! Went for dinner with the boy and discover will have to change the duration of the holiday since need couple of days off in June for..u guessed it? A marriage! Yay! full marks to you!

And in yet more news, P is coming back this week - some issue with regards to compensation not being compensated - really honestly I never realised she was worth that much*!! anyhoo - cheers to that! at least the margarita queen is back so we can have our bitch n moan sessions which have been sorely missed and are sorely needed now!!

Ok! now I think I have updated enough! will go back to hibernation and pretend I have not seen the tag of Pixy Princess - she never told me - I just happend to see it on her blog so will go back in time and not see it**! Muaah!!

* P - I just said that to piss you off! you know I love u!!

**PP - Am thinking of it and it takes time! 6 words can be my name alone!